Friends, lovers or nothing

January 30, 2010

Dear World,

For the second Friday night in a row, I am acting like I have no social life.  I am currently drinking tea, watching The Bee movie and painting my nails a peach color that reminds me of summer.  This is bliss!

In other news, I have been listening to Corinne Bailey Rae’s new album ‘The Sea’ and it is so heart wrenchingly good!  You can tell her husband’s death let a sea full of emotions (no pun intended) through in her songs.  It’s so heart breaking to think of someone loving and losing all too fast.  Her music is so pure and truthful, and she herself is elegance and beauty.

Imma get back to my Friday night activities while they last.  I’m pretty sure I have an early morning ahead of me, so I’ll probably be hitting the hay before midnight.  I swear, I will not become a cat lady!

Oh, and I almost forgot- last night my friend Jess and I saw Hairspray the musical!  It was fantastic!  Everyone was amazing, and Mrs. Turnblat looked exactly liked the original starring Ricki Lake!  The woman who played Penny was my all time favorite, and the play has made me yearn for some saddle shoes.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

I really only want to talk about one topic today is that’s all right.  I saw Leap Year on Monday after my last set of exams, and I have since ceased to get it out of my head.  Granted, I know it’s not an Oscar winner, but it might be one of my new favorite movies, and that’s a tough list to earn a spot on.  I thought the chemistry Amy Adams and Matthew Goode shared was amazing, the entire idea of the movie inspiring, and I found that the scenes were perfect.  I will most definitely be buying this movie when it comes out.  I suppose I needed a refreshing love story plot line.  It has a bit of P.S. I love You mixed into it, and others may disagree, but I found the entire story to be cute and completely fun.  I know reality is never like this, but it was so nice to see two people being comfortable around each other and just having a good (goode, sorry couldn’t help myself) time!

That’s all, I’m done falling in love with movie characters for now.

Sincerely,

Sgea

Dear World,

Alas, I have survived six out of my eight exams.  I have traveled through the wonderous world of scantrons (if you’ve used them for tests you know how hellish they can be).  My mind is a scrabbled (word?) mess as I’ve gone from studying AP Gov. to AP lit and comp (didn’t really have to study, Ms. Eyre and I have a connection) to AP Bio to Anatomy to Psychology to the dreaded pre-calc.  All that is left is french and the second half of my AP bio (essays, ugh).  French will be a breeze, J’adore francaise, et Je parle tout les jours!  The best part is we aren’t even taking a written exam, we’re presenting an essay (in french of course) and a visual of a famous french figure.  My two friends and I chose the beautiful and smart Coco Chanel.  It makes me want to see ‘Coco before Chanel’ starring the lovely Audrey Tautou, very badly!

I love senior year, I love it, but for crazies like me who take  A FULL SCHEDULE, it’s hardly a year to sleep in and procrastinate.  I still somehow manage the latter quite flawlessly.

Speaking of being an overachiever, I’m taking the SAT twos tomorrow.  While everyone else is sleeping in, I’ll be driving an hour away to take a biology and literature test.  It’s alright though, tomorrow night, my school is having an 80’s dance!  Think what you want, but the 80’s have never and will never die out!  I have a maddona-esque ensemble all picked out, and I plan on crimping my hair until it hates me!

Is it bad that while my fellow peers will be out at their ‘ragers’ my friends and I will be doing the Thriller and listening to Journey sing to our souls?  Didn’t think so…

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

Tomorrow is the start of mid terms.  This means I’ll be studying, drinking tea and listening to the calming sounds of The Beatles for the next four days.  I am freaking out about math, I hate it, I HATE MATH.  This isn’t even disliking, this is HATING PRE-CALC.  Give me statistics or algebra and I’d be dandy, but pre-calc that is HARDER than calc makes me want to scream.  I’m not stressing about anything else though.

*Breath* here comes the sun!

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

You never truly comprehend the term ‘senioritis’ until you are half way through your senior year.  I am completely ill with it.  The thing is, I am not procrastinating with anything, I just seem to never have homework anymore.  I am in no way complaining, but it’s starting to get a bit worried.  I always write my assignments in my planner, and it seems to be getting more blank everyday…

I’ve decided to make my life simple again.  It’s so funny how when you become friends with new people your life can change.  In no way are my friends ‘bad’ or anything of the sort, in fact they are quite the opposite.  It;s just that some people have a lot of baggage in their lives, as well as stress and other things, and sometimes it can sit on your shoulders.  I’m going to start reading more books and drinking more tea again.  I think I’ll take a few weekends and dedicate them to me and my mom.  I need to cleanse my routine.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

Recently, I’ve been helping a close guy friend of mine out with his relationship problems.  Needless to say, my advice helped, and I hate to toot my own horn, but I’ve got to say, it’s something I’m good at.  Do I take my own?  Eh, not usually, but hey, c’est la vie!

Oh, have I ever mentioned my math teacher is the worst?!  Just thought I’d say that.  I LOVE her as a person, but she just doesn’t teach…

Sincerely,

Shea

P.S. I know I haven’t had much to say, but that’s not always such a bad thing!

Dear World,

Today in my positive journal I wrote “Today I learned that enjoying what you have is far more rewarding than dwelling in silly possibilities!”

I suppose I have always known this, and I keep telling myself all the time.  It’s a good thing I don’t wear my emotions for everyones’ view, or my heart on my sleeve.  I’m coy, I’m good.  I told my friend and myself some advice that we both need to take; “Enjoy today, and stop thinking about what tomorrow is going to bring.  We will never get today back, and we are happy just the way we are, why on earth would we want to change that?!”

In the words of Kate Nash “I can watch a sunset on my own.”

Indeed I can Kate, indeed I can.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

I forgot to mention a few days ago that long with my resolution for seeing more bands live, I have also decided to keep a ‘positive journal’ for 2010.  Everyday I write down one great thing that has happened.  I don’t know why I haven’t been doing this my whole life.  Life is so beautiful, and there are people out there that need to be reminded of that.  On December 31, 2010 I’ll post it here for people to read!

Sincerely,

Shea

p.s. Friendships have been amended in the past few days, life is back to normal!

Dear World,

It’s officially 2010!  This means a new year, a new decade, a new beginning.  I love fresh starts.  I love resolutions (ones that you keep at least) and the promise of a whole new adventure.  Looking back at 2009 it was definitely full of amazing friends, infinite laughs and so many crazy stories and adventures.  I went out of the country for the first time, started my senior year of high school, and got accepted into colleges.  It was sort of a year that “prepped” me for the rest of my life, if you will.

My new years resolution: To see more bands live

After seeing Dave Matthews Band in 3d I realized how much I miss going to concerts, and how important music is in my life.  I think it will be an advantage going to college in Boston, as I’ll have so many opportunities to see more concerts.

Last night before watching the ball drop, my best friend and I decided that our resolution together would be to write down one positive thing that happens everyday.  Everyone is always complaining, but underneath it all, life is beautiful; strange and beautiful.

My last years resolution was to drink more water, and I’d say I was pretty successful at keeping it.  I set realistic goals, and unconventional resolutions at that.

Here is to another year of laughter, happiness and adventure!  Cheers!

Sincerely,

Shea