Dear World,

This vacation has been a nice one.  Then again, how can a vacation not be nice?  Christmas was wonderful, I spent it with my mom, dad and brother who flew in from Arizona.  I hadn’t seen him since the beginning of September!  I got movies and CDS (Jack Johnson, Regina Spektor and DMB to name a few), some things for my computer (webcam, thumb drive, etc.) and tons o’ gift cards.  My life is now complete for Forever 21, Subway, Dunkin Donuts , TJ Maxx and The Gap.  I also got a Northface backpack,  cute scarves and loafers (because my mom knows me all too well), and of course, a yearly calender.  Last years was landmarks in France, this years, zen.  Yes, basically my mom got me a hippie calender and I’m kind of in love with it.  However, it wasn’t about the gifts as we all know, and it was nice to just be with family.

I spent the weekend with my best, and we went into Freeport and did some shopping.  Then yesterday into today my grandparents and aunt came down for a visit.  I hadn’t seen them since Thanksgiving, and it’s always nice to catch up with my crazy italian-side family (they’ve got crazier stories than Jersey Shore, yes ma’am).

Tonight I’m having dinner with my sisterhood (all of whom are in college minus moi) and I’m pretty positive it will consist of all of us spilling our lives out upon the food, and gossiping about anything and everything.  It’s a girl thing, ya know.  I’ll tell them all about my college acceptance, and they can tell me all about college life, get me prepared and all that jazz.

Oh oh oh, I’m also so proud of myself, because everyday this week I have been going to the gym in the mornings with my good friend.  I really do love being active and healthy, and the holidays/snow/coldness slow everything down.  That’s the only downfall of vacation, the laziness.  I hate that.  I like to be doing something, ANYTHING, all the time.  I don’t think I ever grew out of that 6 year old phase of always being on the go.

I think that ’tis all my friends.  It’s been real.

Sincerely,

Shea

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Pretend I was queen

December 24, 2009

Dear World,

A lot has happened in the past week or so.  When I say a lot I mean  A WHOLE HECK OF A LOT.  However, even though I’ve told someone to never speak to me again for the first time in my life (ahem huge ego boy), and I didn’t receive the part I wanted in a play for the first time in my life, and I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED INTO ONE OF MY TOP CHOICE COLLEGES!- the only real important news is that my dog Tucker had to be put down tonight because of his constant seizures.  He wasn’t even 6 years old yet.  I love him, I miss him, and just thinking about it is making me cry.  I’m going to miss his tennis balls all over the place and his beautiful face waking me up in the morning.  I know this sounds super cliche, but I can’t remember the last thing I said to him.  Now I am constantly going over all the times I shooed him away or yelled at him for eating something he shouldn’t have been.  I miss my little manny, I miss his cute paws and his pink little nose and the smart border collie that he was.  There is never enough time, ever.

When you lose something you love, nothing else really matters.  I may have lost a friend, but he was never worth it.  You should have seen the texts he sent me.  He couldn’t even talk to me face to face.  I’ve never had an enemy, but he is surely the first person I have probably shown my rudest side to.  Yet, none of this matters, Tucker is gone, and he is in heaven, and he in the only thing that occupies my thoughts.

College is in my immediate future, that I can say 100% surely.  It’s perfect because it is in Boston, and it’s the city I’ve fallen in love with.  Yet, even this is hard to be excited about, because my baby is gone.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

I’m finally free.  I’m completely and 1oo% over him.  I don’t care if we have so much in common.  I don’t care if his smile is the sweetest thing.  I don’t even care that he has the cutest boat shoes and looks great in a Northface.  I don’t care, I’m finally over him!  I am going to find someone some day who only sees me, I’m their whole world.  Who chooses to be with me over a freshman *ahem*.  I am going to be with someone who likes me for my natural beauty and not some fourteen year old who is obsessed with Lady Gaga and fries her hair with a straightener.  I deserve so much more, I deserve the best.  Someday, I am going to find someone who doesn’t play games, who doesn’t keep me by a string, someone who can’t wait to see me everyday, but also who doesn’t get jealous when I’m friends with other guys.  Oh dear, I am so glad I am over this one!

If I can give any advice (not that I am much of a dating expert, as I have about zero experiences) I’d say this; Don’t stick around if you are second best to someone.  Don’t always be at someone’s disposal, and don’t always answer your phone.  Enjoy your senior year, and realize that there are plenty more fish in the sea.

I have a life to focus on, a senior year to enjoy, one million friends to have fun with, and college to look forward to.  I am free.

Sincerely,

Shea

She dreams in color

December 12, 2009

Dear World,

One of my secret indulgences is shows like The Hills and The City.  I can’t really explain why I am such a loyal follower, I mean I completely disagree with their lifestyles (drama, rudeness, etc.), but there is something addicting about them.  Currently, I am catching up with The City, which I enjoy a bit more than The Hills (for Whitney is tolerable and actually has talent).

Fear not, I DO have taste for shows!  I am a loyal fan of LOST and Greys Anatomy.  Other than that, I really don’t watch any television, as I have no time and find it to be boring.  Movies are more my thing I’d say.  Oh, I do catch The Office every now and then, and am in love with every single one of the characters!

Now I have LOST on my mind, and long to see Jack’s beautiful face again, and just piece all of the puzzles together.  It’s the finale season which is going to be a shock for me.  I’ve been religiously watching every single episode, even from the beginning.  I believed in it all along.

Sincerely,

Shea

P.S. Last night I had a dream I was in Boston for college, maybe this is a sign I’ve gotten in to some of the colleges I applied to there?!  Fingers crossed!

Dear World,

Today I won an award.  Now, I hope I do not come off as conceited when I say that I win a lot of awards, but I do.  I work hard academically and athletically, as well as in my community to make other people’s lives better.  I do it because I am a human being, and because it would be selfish of me to not dedicate my time to others.  So this award I got was called DAR or Daughters of the American Revolution.  Basically, the teachers at my school nominated myself, along with two other girls and my classmates voted.  I was honored and am very excited to get this award, but of course I have a timed essay I have to write if I want to be considered for scholarship money.  Le sigh.  Oh well, a little hard work never hurt anyone right?

I suppose what I say next is going to make me seem like an even bigger geek than I’ve probably already portrayed myself but I’m going to say it: It’s Friday night, and I am at home at 5:00, already in my pajamas watching Spiderman.  Ok, let me explain myself.  I am rarely home.  After school I have sports or drama or I am running the clocks at a basketball game or doing something for NHS or girl scouts, etc. etc.  My life can be hectic and Friday nights are no better.  Tonight though, an opportunity arose: all of my friends are working, I have nothing to do, therefore, I’m taking the night off, relaxing and enjoying hot chocolate and Tobey Maguire’s face.  OK? Thanks.

Oh, by the way, there are a couple of good movies coming out that I can’t wait to see.  Oh, and also, boys are lame, I’m definitely going to be a cat lady.

Ok I was kidding about that part, but high school boys are still lame.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dream, dream dream dream

December 9, 2009

Dear World,

Do you know what is better than having a snow day? Having a snow day when you are a senior, therefore you do not have to make it up.  HUZZAH!  It’s a truly beautiful concept, a right of passage, ya know?  So despite the fact that I need to finish Jane Eyre, write about a million note cards for my author study and find time to study for anatomy, this day is going to be enjoyable.  I’ve already slept in, that is enough to make me a happy little snow angel.

The thing about the snow that is falling from the sky right as I type this, is that it’s fast and they are tiny snowflakes, the cute ones, the ones that are all so anxious to splat the ground with an unknown force where they will undoubtedly be trampled underfoot by some enthusiastic child or puppy.  All the same, it’s snow, the second snowfall of the year here, and it’s beautiful.  By February, I will have changed my mind, calling it dirty and sad snow, but I will enjoy it for the time being.

I have my opinions on this snow, and I also have my opinion on Clive Owen, he is my future husband.  I’ll have to let him know.  I’m sure his wife and children won’t mind.  I’m sure the age gap (he’s old enough to be my father) won’t be noticeable.  No big deal.  His face is nice and his accent is fantastic.

I was supposed to be going on a field trip today with my AP Lit and Comp class to see A Christmas Carol, but those plans were foiled.  I guess I’m ok with it though, I’d rather be snuggled safe in my bed then taking a yellow school bus off the road, where we would be tucked into a ditch and no one would find us for three days and we’d have to decide who to eat first.  I’m only kidding, I had planned on bringing Subway…

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

As I sit here, white hot chocolate in hand, oatmeal raisin cookie in mouth, I can’t help but love the winter time.  Sure I don’t like being cold, or stepping through wet slush, but the first snow fall is always magical, and wearing boots, leggings, scarves and mittens are my favorite.

What’s my pandora station on at the moment you ask?  Eric Hutchinson.  I’m feeling the love form him, Jack Johnson and the occasional John Mayer.  The men in my life are swoon-worthy, they really are.

I’m slowly feeling the Christmas spirit.  I fell asleep to Elf last night, and I’ve just come back from picking out a tree with the fam.  Decorating tonight + watching A Christmas Story = the perfect touch.  As we were picking out the tree, I had a thought- this is my las Christmas that I will be home to pick one out.  Next year I’ll be in college.  I didn’t say this to my mom, she would have been beaucoups  upset, her little baby, and last child headed off into the world.

Speaking of college, I’ve officially sent out all of my applications as of November 30th.  Now we wait.  I should hear back from a couple of the Boston ones soon, hopefully, please oh please!

Sincerely,

Shea

Foolish Games

December 5, 2009

Dear World,

I went to an art show in the city with my friend today.  People had made ceramics, rings, necklaces and paintings and were selling them on display.  It makes me wish I could paint.  I get all these visions for beautiful paintings, but have no artsy bone in my body besides acting.  Oh well, my grandmother is the painter of the family.

Oh, it’s snowing right now, first snowfall of many I presume!

Sincerely,

Shea