Dear World,

IT’S HOMECOMING WEEK!!!!

This means, not eating, sleeping or relaxing for me.  Ok, maybe some eating and sleeping, but definitely no relaxing.  It’s the best/worst week of my life.  I am SO going to miss this next year…

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

I seriously feels like forever since I have written!  I have no idea why, but only a few days away from blogging/youtube/facebook can really seem like a lot.  However, I am proud to say I do not spend a lot of time on the internet, and when I do, it’s basically, this blog and facebook creeping.  End of story.

Anyway, you know how in my previous post I talked about how life is changing?  Well, naturally it would, right?  I’m a senior, about to apply to colleges, I’m more confident then over (top of the food chain baby) and everything is just right, ya know?  Well as for the whole HIM thing, I am still more attracted to him then EVER.  Gosh two years of adoring someone from a distance can’t just turn off like a light switch!  However, sadly, I am facing reality.  We may never speak.  We may never talk.  It hurts, it stings, but I am an independent young woman, and I will live.  As for homecoming?  This is going to sounds super strange, but I think I might have a date/not really sure?  There is this kid (a junior, I always rod the cradle) and he told this other kid (that just about stalks me) that he was going to homecoming with me, so that the stalker would leave me be.  Now I think he really wants to go with me.  He is an utter goofball and always makes me laugh, but at the same time there IS something cute about him.  Who knows, it’s probably just a little crush.  So… I am not sure about the whole thing?  He’s just endlessly flirting with me, that’s all!

I think I’ve said my fill for the day, except to say that I love high school football games, and even more so winning high school football games! ❤

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

I think this will be a random post…

I am blogging because I am trying to put off studying for calc…

I feel like Taylor Swift should write a soundtrack for my life…

Life is changing, things are different, but a good different…

Homecoming week is the week after this one…

I can’t wait for EVERYTHING it entails (homecoming football game, homecoming soccer game, powderpuff football game, hallway decorating, spirit week, chalk walk, the DANCE)…

Being a senior is bitter sweet, I’m still hella scared/exciting to start applying to colleges…

My lacrosse coach wrote me a latter of recommendation that made me cry, he is such a sweet man…

Greys Anatomy starts soon, and apparently it was wasn’t George the whole time?!

Life is good.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

For the past few days I have felt so disconnected.  My computer has a HUGE virus problem and my dad has to save everything on discs and zip drives and wipe it clean this weekend.  This means I am doing all of my web things on my family computer.  I suppose I’ve been negelecting it for a while, and it is such a nice computer, but I just like lap tops so much better…

 

Today has always been not too stellar.  I RARELY have bad days.  Each day is a gift to me, and as sappy and cliche as that may sound, it’s true.  Yet today EVERYTHING went wrong.  It had its positive counterparts though, and that is why I know everything can turn around.

 

It’s beginning to feel like autumn outside.  This means cute cardigans, comfty foots, the crunchin of leaves, stuffy noses, and crip clean air.  It’s all too perfect, isn’t it?

 

Sincerely,

Shea

She says days go by

September 16, 2009

Dear World,

HAPPY ONE YEAR BLOG!  Ok, so the year was yesterday, but my computer had a virus problem, otherwise I would have thrown a party or something.  Ok, ok maybe not, but seriously this is a milestone for me.  This is the longest I have EVER had a blog.  They usually last a good month (at most) but I promised myself at the beginning of my junior year that this one would document my last two years of high school, and possible a lot longer than that.  I had to keep this promise for myself.  SO much has changed, and SO much has stayed the same (if that makes any sense)!

 

366 days have never gone by faster…

 

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

It’s September 13th, and it’s gorgeous outside!  I’m talking 75 degrees or so, and I am in HEAVEN.

So today is consisting of sitting outside on a blanket, reading and soaking in the last of summer’s sun.

Bliss.

Sincerely,

Shea

Walk me down your broken line

September 12, 2009

Dear World,

A word to the wise: don’t score a soccer goal, when it’s for the other team.

I won’t get  into details, but let’s just say I have never done anything like that before.  It wasn’t why they won (they would have with or without that goal) and the coaches and all of my team mates are being so supportive and not at all mad, but it is still so frustrating.  I went from sad to mad to now just having to laugh about it.  C’est la vie, oui?

To come back alive, I took a bubble bath and have been snuggled in my warm bed on this rainy day reading, so I think I’m doing all right.

Sincerely,

Shea

Dear World,

Hello, love.  How are you?  How’s the family?  Oh me?  I am doing swell thank you.  Oh, you want to hear about EVERY aspect of my life?  Well if you insist…

SCHOOL: I am slowly but surly getting used to senior year.  I can honestly say I am enjoying all of my classes and the thoughts, ideas, wonders and funny moments that come along with them.  I still don’t FEEL like a senior, but it will come with the territory soon I suppose.  For now, I ‘m enjoying my final year as a high schooler.

SOCCER: Our first game was mentally exhausting for every player, but we played with our hearts and with passion, and that to me is a game well played.  We have our first home game under the lights tomorrow, and i am super pumped!  I love my team.  I love soccer.

EXTRA CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES: Our first NHS meeting of the year was today.  I love being president, I love being in charge.  This year NHS wise is going to kick butt.

MY HEART: Oh, right, this vital organ that keeps me alive.  Hmm, let’s ask it.  “Oh Shea’s heart, how does it feel when you’ve like a guy for two years and there is another girl that has apparently liked him for ‘7’ years and she sits behind you in AP BIO and all she does it talk about how she is so going to win him over and she is so his?”

Shea’s heart:  It feels peachy.

I’m DON’T make enemies.  I LIKE everyone.  However, when someone knows that you like someone, and they rub it in your face (secretly) that they like him too, well it’s harsh man, harsh.  I don’t speak a peep of it to her.  I know that guys don’t matter in high school.  I know I am not THIS kind of person.  Heck, she may not even know that I heard or wasn’t doing it intentionally (yeah right).  Yet when you have like someone for a significant time (apparently it’s not as long as 7 years though) it hurts to see someone else investing so much time in this person too.  It just stinks, ya know?

I don’t really ‘invest’ my time on HIM I suppose.  I just haven’t dated or even liked a guy since I have laid my eyes upon him.  Guh, if only he wasn’t so beautifully tall and handsome and quiet in that adorable way.  If only he didn’t look so sharp in his golf uniform.  If only I could get up the nerve to talk to him…

We did have a nice staring session the other day in the halls… yes, this is what my romantic life has come to!

Sincerely,

Shea

P.S. You know what world?  Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!  Cheers!

Dear World,

Today my friend Jessika and I took our senior pictures.  Here is the thing, I am totally, completely and 100% against paying hundreds of dollars for a studio to take my ‘portraits’ *shudders*.  I and in LOVE with natural, vintage and beautiful PHOTOGRAPHS.  You know, the ones that aren’t posed and fake.  The ones that have that natural gleam of sunshine as you sit in your favorite summer dress and let the wind whip through your hair.  So that is the exact kind of photos Jessika and I took today, and it was buckets of fun too!

We went to this cemetery that had porches wrapped in vines and old barns with vintage walls and chipped paint dancing on windows.  It was perfect.  It was real.  There were also benches and fences, just real nature and life (or lack thereof) surrounding it.

Then after a quick trip to Panera Bread to recharge camera batteries (and our food level)  it was off to this cute little beach where we captured ourselves chasing seagulls and lounging on drift wood.

To me, this was a perfect day.  This was a blissful day spent with a dear friend, and along the way we captured who we really are.  I want my senior pictures to embrace who I really am; natural, free-spirited and nature loving.

Today was another day of bliss.

Sincerely,

Shea

P.S. I have nothing against anyone who has or who chooses to take studio pictures.  Most people ned up looking extraordinary.  It’s just not for me.

Dear World,

Can I please take a moment to spew my love for my soccer team?  Ok, thanks!  Today after practice, the whole team went to one of the girls’ houses and we had a huge team lunch whilst playing a random/confusing/hilarious game of pictionary, being attacked by bees while eating outside, and doing the hoedown throw down in the front yard (I infected them by teaching the amazing dance)!  Seriously, team bonding doesn’t get better than that.  Afterwards we went and cheered on the boys as they lost terribly to the defending State Champion team.  It was the perfect day, in every way.  Tomorrow we have our first game.  I am a mix of emotions but mostly exciting.

I have more on my mind but I feel like I have spewed it all before, so it would be a mess of repeats that keeps playing in my head.

Sincerely,

Shea